I discovered random fabulousness in the sandwich world today. As there are few choices of food in my house and the only thing I could find at the store for lunch were a couple small packages of salami and some unknown white cheese, my sandwich prospect looked pretty grim. I needed some mayo or something to relieve the dryness of the bread and some lettuce to add some crunch. Not having those on hand I improvised. I glazed both pieces of bread with peach jam and put a couple crackers in there for the crunch. I was PLEASANTLY surprised. It was very good. I suggest the combination.
On a less exciting note... it occured to me today that perhaps I don't actually like travelling as much as I thought I did. Or more specifically I don't think I enjoy venturing solo into the unknown for extended periods of time. I should have realized this when I decided to go to Colorado just because that was the state where I knew people. And now that I think about it, whenever I talk about wanting to go somewhere, it involves seeing someone that I know who lives there. When I decided that I wanted to study abroad, it was because I wanted to have the amazing experience that everyone talks about. I wanted to force myself to grow. Well, I'd better do some growing quick because I'm getting bored and lonely. Mind you my classes haven't started yet. But still... I've just realized unsurprisingly that my loved ones are the most important things to me. I think I would be having a blast if I had a friend with me. I have made a couple friends here... but it's not the same as being with someone you love. And I don't really want to get used to being alone and not having loved ones around. I'm sure that would make me stronger in some sense... but I think vulnerablility is valuable. I don't want to grow cold. Everything is more fun when you have someone to share it with. Anyway. I'm not complaining really, just taking note of an interesting personality trait I chose to overlook so I could be one of those amazing people who studied abroad. I suppose by this time next year I will be telling everyone I meet that they absolutely have to study abroad because it is AMAZING! But right now I miss sitting in my living room with my various families laughing about something silly the cat just did.
3 comments:
Kena, it just HAS to get better. i know it. starting over pretty much always sucks. trust me, i've been to several new schools. the thing about new friends is that you have to build stories together and figure each other out which just takes time. just don't shut yourself in your room or anything like you said you did at the beginning of freshman year. just think about how many more days of fun we would have had together if you had been out there. ;-) i'm sure you know all this. i of course am not yet in your situation and so it is much easier for me to give advice without actually realizing how hard it all is. anyway, i love you and everything will be just fine. you will never become cold! it's impossible. and, despite your nasty sandwich choices, you will have a spectacular year. and when we both get back we will paint our nails to preserve our innocent natures.
Hey, baby-girl! It doesn't matter when you're feeling lonely, because whenever it is I am thinking about you, 'cause I think about sharing something with you just about all the time! - Wheee - You are definitely Somebody Loved! So, you are never completely alone. I hope you find strength in yourself and energy to delve into something you've wanted to try... Love
Hey you. Sorry the road in your adventure has run into some bumpy places. For one thing though, any time your health isn't great, other things don't seem so good either. I'm sure that when you begin feeling better, everything else will start to look rosier as well. But I can understand your feeling lonely. I remember the first few weeks when I was in France, all I wanted to do was to stay in my room and read a book. And unfortunately the people I was with let me get away with it. Luckily the next family I was with said every day "This is what WE are doing today" and just assumed I was a part of the family. Therefore I got more involved and learned more about the language and the customs. In my experience, I found that you don't have to speak the language perfectly to get along. The people were more than kind when they found I was making an effort to learn their language and culture. I am convinced that when classes start and you get more involved in things, everything will seem better. When do your classes start anyway? Thanks so much for doing the blog so we can share in whatever you are experiencing. Love you much.
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